I’m 15 and my mom passed away about 4 months ago

I’m 15 and my mom passed away about 4 months ago and when I was younger my mom was in and out of jail and always heavily into drugs and I could never truly understand how she could just neglect her children for drugs. My dad works all the time and is really never home so basically it’s just me and my 2 brothers home alone a lot. I just always feel so alone and like I have no one and so I have turned to sports to keep me from doing things that I know aren’t me. I have tried to overdose twice and used to cut a lot. But I try to keep my self busy with art and sports so I don’t feel so alone and like I’m unwanted.

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