Having everything, a supportive family, money, healthy and even people like me for who I am.

Having everything, a supportive family, money, healthy and even people like me for who I am. And still the biggest problem is that I am not happy. I almost feel guilty to say that I am depressed.

Feelings are something I would rather hide. This little girl inside me has to carry all those feelings and she doesn’t get to share it with anyone even not myself. I would hurt her physically so she will just shut up. I feel so guilty about her right now, after all those years I want to change it but a bad habit is hard to turn around. I did make a promise with her that I will never hurt myself physically again. I kept my promise but it is not enough. The little girl is hurt and damaged and the only one that can save her is confused, scared, sorry, drinking, smoking, sleeping, avoiding, crying, kicking, screaming, ...lost.

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