It seems as though I can't get rid of the past.

It seems as though I can't get rid of the past. I've gained 140 pounds, a diabetic, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, eye problems, insomnia and just depressed I started as a caregiver for my family members and forgot to care for me. 

So now my family talk bad about me I have no friends my world is empty. I constantly pray to God to help me to help myself. I've been to many many mental health doctors. They only have pills I need a friend or friends. Someone to talk to who understands and won't just say she's crazy. I saw this on the news on 4/13/18 and I thought I would try your web site. Any suggestions are greatly appreciated.