Patience is something I have struggled with my entire life. If I work hard on something that I want to accomplish, I want to accomplish it right then in that moment. Waiting for things to happen is something that makes my skin crawl. I want to work hard. I want to achieve and waiting around makes me feel a bit panicked.
Starting my own company has tested my patience. The stress is something I am working through every day. I feel so lucky and excited to be working towards spreading the word about Listen, Lucy to anyone and everyone. I feel worried that I am going to fail. This company and this movement have become such a big thing in my life. It is this beautiful way to end something that had power over me for years. Listen, Lucy has become such a big part of me that I want it to succeed as much as I need pizza. Yes, that much.
A couple of days ago I came home with some great news to share with my husband about Listen, Lucy. As we were talking about how great it was and how things were going, he was asking me about how I was feeling about everything. I started to break down. I had just got this awesome news but was feeling so stressed and emotional and it all came out through tears and inaudible sounds. I tried my best to explain that I feel nervous all of the time. I feel tired and I am so scared of failing and that I am putting myself out there-- really out there-- and I have no idea if it is going to work. I told him that I am so grateful that we are in a position in our lives that I am able to pursue my dream and that I have his support and not many people get to do this, but that I am worried I am not enjoying and appreciating the process as much as I should be. As always, he listened and comforted and told me how proud he was of me and wrapped me in his arms. I appreciate him more than I could ever put into words.
I love trying to put good out into the world. I believe in Listen, Lucy. I believe in it more than I believe in most things. I am going to work my hardest to make this successful. I am going to try and enjoy every minute of it.
For me, patience and enjoying the process is difficult. I am currently working on both. Hard work is not something I am a stranger to but working towards reaching your own dream is harder work than I have ever done in my life. It is an amazing thing. It is a positive thing. It is not something I am going to give up on.
I guess my message for this post is for everyone reading this that is working towards something. In my eyes, being brave enough to go after your goals and dreams makes you a success. The process is what gives you the stories. The hard work makes you tough. The stress makes you wise and without these things, you won’t appreciate the success you come to have as much as you should.
You can do it. I can do it. We can do it. Take a breath and enjoy the ride.