I have never had any serious problems in my life. I have always been pretty confident,
I was a pretty popular kid in school, not that it would have even mattered to me if I wasn't. I never really cared what people thought of me. I have had amazing friends, friends I have had since kindergarten. I don't have many friends but the friends that I have are good ones. I have always been healthy. I have never had any issues getting a job. I actually one day said "I want to be an Event Planner" and I googled "Event Planners" in the area I was living in and I sent my resume and by the end of the week I was hired. I now have made a rather successful career for myself. Life seemed to just always work out for me ("knock on wood"). I have a really awesome family, I never really had any major family troubles aside from typical teenage issues. I was just always very lucky in life, I guess it was luck but whatever it was life just always seemed rather easy for me. I never worried about anything, if things didn't work out I just figured...oh well, things will work themselves out and I would move on. But the one thing that was always missing from my life was love. Not family and friends love but being that "knock it out of the ball park" kind of love, I always wanted that. Until about year ago I was beginning to think that perhaps I will never find it, maybe I have been given everything else in my life so easily, that maybe you really cannot have it all, maybe this will be my life...just me. And I was beginning to accept that. It took me 31 years to find the man I want to spend my life with and I will tell you it was worth every minute of waiting. June 9, 2012, one of my best friends text me asking if I was interested in going out with her friend's brother. June 10, 2012 he facebook inboxed me (thank you social media!). June 15, 2012 was our first date and I drove home from that date honestly thinking "Is it possible to throw up from feeling so happy?" I will never forget thinking that...it was the greatest. And we've been together ever since.
I wasn't sure what I wanted my message to be with writing this but then I realized, there are so many people out there that settle, that rationalize being with the wrong person just because they want to be with someone. I have been that person. I have been the person that puts the front up that you feel so happy but in your head you feel sad. I am here to tell everyone out there that settling should not be an option. You should not rationalize being with someone who does not make you over the moon happy, who does not love all of your flaws, who does not empower your decisions and support you. You should be with someone who when he/she looks at you, you can feel how proud they are of the person you are. You should be with someone who has your back. You should be with someone who looks at you when you feel so ugly and for some reason they shockingly tell you how beautiful you are. You should be with someone who makes it easy to work out your differences and you want to make it easy to work them out as well. I am here to tell you all...it is worth the wait. This is your life. You are in charge of your destiny and life is way to short to spend it with someone who does not appreciate you and who does not make you truly happy. Each and every one of us deserves to be happy, happier than we could have ever imagined. We all deserve to be content. Each and every day I feel so happy to come home just to see the smiling face of the man I love. I once read a quote that a friend posted who went through something so tragic in life and it stuck with me. The quote read "I'd rather have 30 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special". I always kept this with me because that is how I always felt. You see all of these romantic love stories on tv and you think that is what you want, and to an extent that is what it is, only there isn't romance every day but just true joy and happiness that you feel inside. One of my girlfriends asked me a few weeks ago if I was just so excited for where my life is right now, and I explained that it doesn't feel the way I expected it to feel. I am not jumping out of my skin and wanting to run around like a crazy person screaming from rooftops but I just feel incredibly content and at ease...and I'll tell you...that feeling is the very best feeling in the world. Life can be so crazy and so tragic and so dramatic and so sad and so stressful and so hurtful at times...to feel at ease and content and happy....well there isn't anything better in my opinion. So for all of you people out there who are feeling in your head like you are settling but are trying so hard to rationalize it...I am living proof...I am here to tell you..there is something, someone, better out there for you. Someone who is your someone who will make all of your days brighter and better and happier...you just have to be strong enough to wait for them to arrive.